Now We're in Week 32 - Working to Get 'Un-Bummed'

I'm home from another visit to the hospital. For whatever reason, I knew mentally that the placenta previa would cause bleeds but I thought it was something I did that caused them. Not necessarily! The uterus is stretching and growing, and Cletus is growing as well so he needs the room. The uterine growth can cause that placenta to stretch or pull away slightly and bleed. There's no way to prevent it, and no way to know if it'll be mild or serious. In fact, now that I've had three different bleeds - it's interesting to note that all of them occurred while I was laying down. I'm done feeling guilty about it.

The third time at the hospital wore me down emotionally. I was really bummed out, and then really thrilled that they agreed to let me go home. Going home wasn't a for sure thing - they prefer to keep you after #3. Since being at home I've slept a ton, enjoyed a nice bath, and been taking it easy, just like I'm supposed to. Have been working to adjust some settings on my insulin pump to help with blood sugars.

I had an ultrasound yesterday. Kiddo is an estimated 4 pounds 3 ounces, and in the 71st percentile for weight. I take these measurements with a grain of salt because the larger a fetus gets the harder it is to estimate weight accurately. His organs still look great. I saw the bladder, kidneys, heart, brain etc. He's still super active, with a lot of fetal movements on the NST monitor and he's still got a great heart beat. It's very comforting that he looks so healthy. He still looks to have some hair on his head!

I finished one knitting project, and have started another one. I painted a little birdhouse when I was in the hospital. I've been watching a series called Downton Abbey, which is fan-freaking-tastic. I try to catch The Big Bang Theory on TV on Thursday nights. Was anticipating part two of Ken Burns/Lynn Novick Prohibition series but it was a repeat of part one. Boo-urns! (Aside: I saw a show about ice cream that said a lot of factories switched from making/bottling beer to producing ice cream after Prohibition passed - I hope the documentary mentions this. ICE CREAM YAY! I'd so rather have some ice cream than a cocktail.) I play a lot of Words With Friends (email me if you want me screen name), and my Mom and I have a good Scrabble rivalry going. There are a million diversions at my disposal, but sometimes I don't feel like doing any of them. I love that my friends and family still visit me and message me. In fact, some buddies were going to bring a costume party to me at the hospital next weekend - but I was cut loose from the clink! Worth missing out to be home, all in all.